Turning down the volume of life

[pktechgirlbackup]

Today was my first day of improv class. They focused a lot on trying to build an atmosphere of trust, and I totally get why, but...

The hardest thing I have done this month is be a model for the head teacher to demonstrate a control exercise to the tiny ninjas . In this exercise, one punches as close as possible to another person without actually hitting them. I know this woman, she's hit me lots of times and I've been fine afterwords, and I know she has the control to not hit me if she doesn't want to. But it is really hard to drop your guard and just let someone punch at you. My proudest moment this month was doing that exercise with one of the ninjas, and gaining enough of her trust that she dropped her guard hand and let me punch directly at her.

...so you can why, as a trust building exercise, word ball was not really doing it for me. It's not their fault, and I'm not suggesting we start a punching-based improv exercise, but it is hard for me to get invested.

Comments

[scythe-of-time.livejournal.com]

Ah.. I was wondering what you meant when you were talking about "turning down the volume of life" earlier (esp. relevant to Quantum activities). I think I get it now.

I don't know if I could get to that level of trust with someone. Good for you for working towards that point.

[crystalpyramid]

This is an awesome post. There need to be real risks to establish real trust, I think.

[pktechgirl.livejournal.com]

You know, the whole emphasis on "being trusting", as opposed to "being trustworthy" bothers me. It's a pattern I've noticed a lot of places, and it always puts me on higher alert.

[crystalpyramid]

I think looking for trusting people is generally taken as a red flag in the pagan world that a coven is up to no good. And I feel much more comfortable being angry at the world for being too untrustworthy, than being angry at myself for being too trusting.

I should probably try to apply this insight to some of my own current trust issues, because I think it's really key.