Becoming who we are

This time last year, I posted a list of lessons I had learned the previous year. I've tried to do it again this year, and it's not coming to me. Whereas the last year (and the nine before it) were about painstakingly learning social skills one mistake at a time, this year was about coming home. It's not that everything is easy or perfect now, but it no longer feels like I'm working in a language I only partially understand. This is amazing and empowering, but a lot harder to translate into a bulleted list. I can't even really make it into a lesson about how if you keep working things become evil, because I now believe that I always had the genetics to be really skilled socially, but grew up in a really counterproductive environment. I guess I need to apologize to everyone I silently judged for not trying as hard as me to learn social skills, because it turns out I was gifted there too. Sorry.

I still have problems and things to learn, but it's qualitatively different now.